"Don’t do it. Don’t go back to what broke you. Don’t let his name get caught in your throat. Don’t hold his hand. Don’t let his skin touch your skin. Don’t utter those kind words to him. He doesn’t deserve it and you know it.
You know it, even though you want nothing more than to see him smiling and he keeps smiling that smile at you and you can’t breathe but in the good way. You know it, even though his touch still makes you shake, your hands trembling, but you know, in the good way.
And I know you’re scared of letting him in again, scared that this time he will reel you in and you’ll never get his teeth out of your neck. And you should be scared. He never did anything good for you. He left your heart on the side of the road. He didn’t care for you, didn’t nurture your love, disregarded it, threw it away.
And it will hurt more the second time, and even more the third, and I promise you, he will do it again. And it will leave you shattered. It will leave you untrusting and scarred. It will place you in this delusion that he is the only one in the world for you, like you are bound to him, incomplete without him, even though every day he breaks you.
And he thinks he can get away with this behavior, thinks you’ll always come back, digs his claws into your back until you feel so stuck, swallowed by the darkness. But you’re not stuck. He is not the only one for you. You will find love again and it will be beautiful and kind, nothing like the glass shards he makes you breathe in. Don’t do it. don’t get addicted to the pain.
Don’t go back to what broke you. He can’t fix you. He will only break you again."
(Picture from @oktilli