Gratitude for something we don't like, because it challenges us...this was the final #shavasana
meditation from @flyfishingyogi
in this morning's class. This one goes pretty deep. Brace yourself, I'm probably about to overshare.
Something I don't like that challenges me is my anger. I exited my childhood with a white hot ball of rage that I had no idea what to do with. In my early teens it landed me in several adolescent mental health care centers where I was drugged, restrained, and subject to some pretty intensive modalities of psychotherapy. In later years it led to a journey of self medication that ended up becoming a whole other problem entirely. Ultimately I learned to control it in the spirit of self-preservation, but it is not something I have been able to vanquish completely.
Running brings me reprieve, but #yoga
seems to present the first real potential solution. I am hopeful. It is the first thing that makes me feel like I have something else to offer those around me.
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