I am relishing in the decision that I made years ago that I would make a continuous effort to not only live a life of purpose, but live a life of happiness. A life that is unapologetic and also unashamed. A life that I want to wake up to everyday and not one that is simply "expected" of me.
I am also grateful to have a life partner who advocates for my mental health, who pushes me to take time out to enjoy myself, who knows when I am drained or exhausted and who understands t...hat my happiness is so important because that energy flows over into herself and our child. I am so happy to have a partner who motivates me, who reminds me often that the small things simply dont matter, who provided the light that guided me on a path to live in my truth.....and to do so unapologetically.
It does not fulfill her to have a superwife and supermom who gets everything done and makes sure that our family unit lives up to a certain image. And for years before I fell in love with her, that was the idea that I had of marriage. No..... what fulfills her is to know that she is desired, appreciated and that I feel the same in return and that I am HAPPY. Truly happy. And that our kid is happy. Priceless.
I am equally gracious to be on the receiving end of the most valuable gift that I could ever be given. Motherhood. The gift of viewing my heart outside of my body. The gift of watching a little human evolve. That is an experience that I try not to take for granted. Everyday with my son is a gift. Every question, every whine, every cry, and every meltdown is all worth it.
So many people have been puzzled, confused and simply cannot wrap their mind around how I chose to live the life that I am living.
One day I realized that living for MY happiness was far more important than living for the happiness and acceptance of others.
A wise person once said, "It is much better to live your own destiny imperfectly than to live a perfect imitation of someone else's life." I encourage you to dig deep and pursue what makes YOU happy first. Everyone else comes next. You deserve it.
My heart is so full.
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