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In 2 days it will be my twin sisters 2 year angel-versary. I miss her so much. My fellow twinless twins have been sending me hugs from all over the world, reassuring me that my love for her is still strong. #twinloss #twinlesstwin
What I wouldn’t give to have these 2 in my arms right now. Missing them something fierce. As I watch the days go by and I get further from the last time I held them, it seems like my heart aches more. Henry and Hudson, I hope you know how much Mommy loves you, as long as I’m living my babies you’ll be. 💙💙 #HenryandHudson #twinloss #infantloss #myboys #myworld #broken #lifeafterloss
Phoenix Emerald - named to remind us God always brings beauty from ashes. My beautiful forever baby. You are so loved and so missed. 1) Phoenix shortly after she and Thea were born. 2) my first time holding her - two days before she passed 3) my fierce fighter working so hard to live while her kidneys were failing 4) @adamjones615 holding her after she died 5) me holding her after she died 6) Phoenix in the dress given to her after she passed - it's made of a donated wedding gown 7) my Phoenix doll - in no way, shape or form is this doll a replacement. Only a stunning reminder of my Angel baby. #worldprematurityday
Today was such a relieving day. We went and picked up the twins from the funeralhome ! A week after i gave birth to them we had to go to the funeral home to pick out an urn and the funeral home employee that was helping us had this cute teddy bear picked out so we thougt it was perfect! In the back of the bear is a zipper that the urn is kept . Forever they will sit with our family picture just to remember the wonderful 17 weeks of thinking oh my gosh we are having twins what are we going to do!! We will never forget those precious babies they will always be in our hearts ! We will always ❤ you baby Jemma and Jessa ! #twinloss #pregnancylossawareness #17weekspregnant #jemma&jessa
Day 51 of #100DaysofHealingandRemembrance, some green pastel marks and an open story of loss, remembrance and hope from Kristyn Szala on losing one of her twins. . "I have two babies. My son, who is about to turn 3 next week, is named Brock. My sweet angel, who would have turned three on the same day as her twin brother, I call Coco. . We struggled with two years of fertility treatments to conceive our blessings. My greatest success (giving birth) also feels like my greatest failure (my miscarriage). . When an ultrasound revealed that Brock was the only surviving twin, I struggled. Everyone around me was celebrating my pregnancy and I was grieving. I was mad at everyone, mad at the world, and mad at myself for not being able to fully enjoy the gift of the one baby I was still carrying…" (read all of Kristyn’s words via the link in my IG profile) . This  #100DayProject captures the experiences of those of you who have been touched by infertility, miscarriage or the loss of a baby. . With the stories you share, I’m creating one large abstract painting by adding to a canvas. At the end of the project, I’ll be cutting it into 100 smaller pieces. These tiny abstract paintings will be sent to those who contributed or could use some encouragement, or both. . Why do this? Because those affected [we] are all part of an unintentional and unfortunately large community of people who don’t talk about these experiences enough and art is healing. We can find beauty and strength from sharing our stories and supporting each other. To read Kristyn’s whole story (Day 51) and participate: angelacravenart.com/100-day-project
Join us on 15th December 7pm - 11pm at Chats Palace 42-44 Brooksbys Walk, Homerton, E9 6DF for Love Volcano's Christmas Spectacular! @lovevolcano will get you dancing your novelty socks off with a smasher of a party set, with a few Christmas hits thrown in https://lovevolcano.com Tickets are £10, with all proceeds going to support the Little Jimmy Brighter Future Fund, raising money for Great Ormond Street Hospital, in memory of our son James. Tickets are available in advance here: https://www.tickettailor.com/checkout/view-event/id/126503/chk/cce9/ James’ story can be read here: https://www.standard.co.uk/news/health/parents-of-twin-boy-who-died-fundraise-for-equipment-to-save-30-babies-a-year-a3655666.html #charity #thingstodoinlondon #london #christmas #fundraiser #greatormondstreethospital #babyloss #childloss #twinloss #neonataldeath #funk #soul #carols #homerton
Happy Sunday!
I've never shared this picture before, and some people might think it's too raw or too personal. But this was my life less than 18 months ago. I've been thinking of my sons a lot more these days. Having Natalie now, and all of her distractions has helped to ease the pain of losing our perfect boys. I would give anything to be back in this moment in time and hold them again. Not a day goes by that I don't think of them, or what mischief they'd be getting into now. 😇😇Until the day comes when I see them again, they are forever loved and remembered. #willandsamforever #stillbornstillloved #twinloss #angels
I think a nap is in order! 😍
Lately I’ve been feeling numb. Losing myself in the distractions of everyday life. I’ve been desperately trying to soak up the coming holiday spirit, maybe even forcing it in at times. I desperately want to feel it and enjoy it, but my heart is making it difficult. I’ve realized my brain has been on auto-pilot and my heart is locked away from feeling all the memories from last year. They have been creeping in on me, silent, startling, suffocating. I’m not sure exactly why the coming anniversary triggers these feelings, but I know other people who have experienced trauma face the same thing. I’ve been thinking all day about how I’m going to get through what’s left of the rest of the year. How I’m going to choose joy over sorrow. I’m a fighter and I don’t want this numbness to rob me of the joy of the season and celebrating my daughters first birthday. How do I do that? How do I honor and include Briggs? How do I allow my heart to feel? Maybe keeping my heart in a jar is the best plan, just to survive it all. This must be just another unexpected facet of grief. My name is Liz and this is my real life.
Sorry about your outfit, Thea. 🤔😏😂