In the past, I could never understand how people could blame God for the bad things that happen in their life. I've been through my fair share of heartache, but never felt angry with God.
I'm not saying it's right to feel that way, but I can now understand how people struggle with their faith in light of extremely difficult times in their lives, because I have been struggling myself. I wouldn't say I blame God, or am angry with Him, but I am finding myself questioning my journey. I think in large part I'm guilty of comparing myself to others, wondering why some couples conceive so easily, and here I am and so many women out there struggle for years just for the possibility of a child. I'm not saying those people don't deserve to conceive so easily, but I'm wondering "why me? Why do I have to struggle with this?" Someone said to me that this will make me a better mom and appreciate my future child more (but the negative side of me thinks- so you're saying I wouldn't be a good mom if I conceived easily?).
Comparison is an ugly path to go down, so I know I need to stop comparing myself to others and stop thinking about what I think I deserve and have faith that what God thinks I deserve is better than I could ever imagine. #ttc #ttcsisters #ttccommunity #ttcjourney