I finally saw our LittleB for the first time today. As I look at these grainy images, I cannot help but think about how our LittleB was real. I feel such peace because I know that our love was, and is, real. ***
On one of my first posts, I mentioned how awful our Aug. 2 ultrasound appointment was. The tech and radiologist did not even show us our baby. I had no idea what was going on, only that something was wrong. ***
The only reason I now have these images is because I decided to advocate for my own health. I've been going to numerous doctors to figure out what is going on with my body. The radiologist I went to a few weeks ago was so kind and helpful. I was able to view the images of my cyst on their website. Since they wanted to compare the cyst to the Aug. images, they also had the other office share those ultrasound images. These show our LittleB. My God, I did not realize how much I needed to see these images!
LittleB, You may have stopped growing before we got a chance to officially meet, but I had the privilege of carrying you for your entire life. Now I carry you (and your sibling, our October Babe) in my heart. I'm sorry I did not ask the radiologist more questions. How I wish I would have made them show me your images on the screen that day. But I have a few pictures of you now and my heart is happy. These images and the photos of my pregnancy tests captured such a time of joy in our lives. Thank you. ***
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