#thisismybraveface 242 Posts

The tough days are difficult, the normal days are good but the good mornings, afternoons, evenings or days are INCREDIBLE Today is a G O O D day πŸ™ŒπŸ» Happy Monday everyone xx . . . . . #grief #grievingmother #griefandloss #griefjourney #goodday #choosinglife #embracingchange #twinloss #babyloss #babylosssupport #thisgirl #survivingtwin #twinmom #monday #mondaymood #momblogger #thisismybraveface
There's not one part of my day where I don't look for signs that Esme is with me. This morning before leaving for the airport, I looked up to see the moon and just one star (you can't actually see it in the photo πŸ™„but it was to the left of the moon). I think today she was saying, "Mummy you should have set off an hour ago πŸ€¦πŸΌβ€β™€οΈ" . . . . . #brighteststar #writteninthestars #writeyouonmyheart #babyloss #grief #grievingmother #griefawareness #griefandloss #twinloss #survivingtwin #twinmom #sunrise #silhouette #cotignac #saytheirnames #earlyriser #blogger #thisismybraveface
J U S T K E E P S W I M M I N G Whilst we were in the neonatal ward, @cimicspics sent an uplifting video about how the Finding Nemo creator inspired the family of a premature baby. I couldn't not put this photograph up of Charlotte in her Finding Nemo swimsuit without thinking about how far she has come and all those days when we 'just kept swimming' 🐟 . . . . . #justkeepswimming #findingnemo #findingdory #lifeafternicu #firstfamilyholiday #cotignac #franceholiday #summerholiday #prematurebaby #preemie #preemiebaby #preemies #survivingtwin #twinloss #twinmom #twinmummy #preemietwins #premmiepower #proudparents #onefootinfrontoftheother #momblogger #mummyblogger #babyswimming #thisismybraveface
Ever since this one was called the 'wild one' by the neonatal nurses, I knew there would be nothing stopping her. She is the funniest, prettiest, bravest little person I have ever met. As she grows up and becomes more mobile, I find some days difficult to ignore my anxieties about her developing right side hemiplegia. It's those days I struggle adjusting to Charlotte's 'normal'. I know she will be fine in anything she does, she's too determined to let anything stop her. It's about learning to trust that she will be fine, doing what I can to support her and letting go of what I can't control. . . . . . #momlife #momanxiety #anxiety #acceptance #hemi #hemiplegia #lifeafternicu #prematurebaby #survivingtwin #babygirl #blueeyes #happybaby #jumpsuit #smile #mygirl #twinmom #unicorn #lovethiskid #brainbleed #copingmechanism #momblogger #thisismybraveface
Dear Esme, Today marks the end of all our firsts together: The day you were born The day I first held you The day you met your sister The day I kissed you goodbye The day I danced with you The day you were buried Here's to our next year together, Love you to the moon, Mummy xxx . . . . . #favouritepicture #mummydaughter #anniversaries #yearoffirsts #funeralday #baby #babyloss #grief #mothersgrief #mummysangel #angel #twinloss #twinmom #letters #lettersoflove #saytheirnames #neonataldeath #prematurebaby #prematuretwins #loveyoutothemoonandback #love #hope #babygirl #momblogger #mummyblogger #thisismybraveface
As its 'World Suicide Prevention Day' & I've been posting a few 'my head is shit' posts lately, I thought I'd just let you all know that I'm still here, breathing & trying to keep my life as normal as possible. Whatever normal is... Yes, my anxirty & depressive episodes have hit me harder & lasted longer of late, but a visit to the Mental Health Nurse has pointed the finger towards a misdiagnosis. Fingers crossed that I will find out more later this month. In the meantime, the routine of running/training is helping to give me a little more focus, even if I have a 'wobble' now & again... On top of this, some of you may or may not know that I have been estranged from my parents & siblings for many years now. Sadly my Father passed away on Friday, just 8 months after my Mother. With his passing went my last hope of reconciliation... Whilst I am lucky to know that my wife & kids are in my corner, I am mindful of the fact that whilst I can't choose my family, I can & have chosen some very good friends over the years... #mentalhealth #MentalHealthMatters #mentalhealthawareness #depression #depressionsufferer #anxiety #bpd #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #thisismybraveface #itsokaynottobeokay #okaytosay #blackdogdays @MindCharity #mind @rethinkmentalillness #rethink @mentalhealthfoundation @heads_together #headstogether #runningismytherapy @nationalrunningshow #runshow18
The truth behind a picture take 2 😷 Starters - Charlotte was amazing, sat in her buggy and enjoyed her baguette Main course - To keep her entertained and stop her from crying, she sat on her Daddy's knee and enjoyed a chip. Five seconds later, the chip didn't go down too well and resulted in projectile vom all down Connor's shorts and down my leg, narrowly missing my steak. Whilst catching all the vom did the nervous look over my shoulder to see if the entire restaurant was watching. Just the lady sat directly behind us - blank impression, no sign of a sympathetic smile! Dessert - a wild child, far too nosy to enjoy her second bottle of milk. = Me and @concampbell ready for bed 😴 πŸ’€ . . . . . #parenting #familyholiday #daddyduties #momlife #parentingtruth #parentingtheshitoutoflife #babystagram #pastbedtime #cotignac #familymeal #oneyearold #oneyearoldbaby #firstsummerholiday #dadlife #momblogger #grandparents #mummyblogger #learnthehardway #babyweaning #thisismybraveface
It has been very heartwarming to read everyone's beautiful messages about Esme. It was the piece of writing which I dreaded writing the most. I relived every minute, every ounce of pain and every bit of heartache, knowing that that would be the last time I held my little girl. But I had to write it, to be fair to myself. I couldn't "move forward" knowing I was living in denial and ignoring the pain which I experienced that day. I am astonished that over 1500 people have read it. I was so nervous about publishing it, knowing I was describing every moment of my daughter dying. But your comments have filled me with love and hope. Esme was with us for 7 weeks, 2 days, 1 hour and 45 minutes. In that time she taught me more things I think I would ever learn in a life time. I love you Esme Campbell. You are one clever little girl. . . . . . #proudmom #proudmummy #proudofyou #angel #heaven #mummysangel #babyloss #neonatalloss #twinloss #twinmummy #survivingtwin #hope #believe #love #favouritephoto #behonestwithyourself #livelife #momblogger #mummyblogger #thisismybraveface
This photograph is from my blog post 'Saturday 27th August 2016' That morning was the first time I wore my @selfishmother jumper. When I was pregnant I had seen @mother_of_daughters wearing one. I couldn’t wait to buy one when I became a mother to Charlotte and Esme. I wore it, and still do wear it, with so much pride. I posted this picture with the status β€˜I can do this’ #feelingstrong #beautifulday #selfishmother. I had a mixture of emotions when I posted it; I was wanting to show the world I could do this; I wanted everyone to see my brave face and I needed the support from others to get me through the day. BUT what I didn't mention is that my dog, Hattie, is completely photo bombing my picture πŸ˜³πŸ’©. It made me laugh so much. I just want to say my dogs, Hattie and Mila, are amazing! They get me out in the fresh air every day and know how to help mend my heart ☺️ . . . . . #lovemydog #photobomb #labrador #blacklabs #dogsareamansbestfriend #dogsofinstagram #labsofinstagram #thefmlystore #cryforhelp #mother #babyloss #twinmom #twinmum #campbellinas #momblogger #thisismybraveface