WARNING, LONG CAPTION (but totally worth it, if I do say so myself 😊) The other day, I saw a tweet in regard to #Charlottesville
that said something to the effect of, "I'm tired of y'all telling black people that they need to forgive racists -- we don't need to forgive them" or something like that and it had like 20K retweets and it made me sad because it's such terrible advice.
Here's a little testimony for those of you that are in to that sorta thing. Not even 3 years ago, I still carried a lot of hatred in my heart for a variety of things and people including bigots AND myself. Someone else that I carried a lot of hate for was my father and before we reconciled & reconnected in 2015, I hadn't spoken to him since 2008. Fortunately, my mom getting sick in 2014 sorta broke my heart open and blessed me with the compassion and understanding to not only forgive my father but also my mother and most importantly myself.
Fast forward to 3 weeks ago - I haven't had a consistent source of income since August of 2016 and I've also still lived on my own and paid all my bills (barely) during this period as well. Well, at the end of June, my car broke down and I had no money to get it fixed so I was carless for about a month on top of being jobless. The end of July drew near and I still had no idea how I was going to get my car fixed (or pay any other bill for that matter) but I also was entering a space of surrendering to what is. I told God what I needed and I trusted that she would provide it to me and I let it be. The next day, I got a call from my father. He told me that God had told him to call me and that he just wanted to check in on me. I told him what was up (I generally suffer in silence) and lo and behold, he was in a position to help me out and two days later, my car was on the road again.
Had I not forgiven my father, had I not allowed my heart to open to him again, who knows what my situation would be right now? But instead, I'm mobile again and things are really looking up for the first time in what seems like an eternity. **CONTINUED IN THE COMMENTS**