Day 72 - "insert four letter f profanity here"ing #Diabetes!
Warning, long post ahead... I took a correction bolus a while ago with a little extra in anticipation of my stress eating while trying to code out the plan for my literature review. Got so into it that I forgot the chocolate in the drawer next to me until I feel the unmistakable "floating head", trembling hands, cold sweat, trouble focusing, sinking feeling in my stomach, all round shitty feeling.
In the time it's taken to write this, I'm down the 3.8 and continuing to fall while I'm now forcing the chocolate in (not the best choice to bring up a #hypo
but it's the closest thing)
have been annoyingly high the past few weeks due to lack of sleep and bad stress (as opposed to good stress like trying something new or training). For those that don't know much about #type1diabetes,
hypos are low blood sugar episodes that lead most diabetics to lose good judgement on food choices and amounts. Most of us (type 1s) have had the experience of coming back to logical thinking and realizing that the fridge is still open and finding half eaten containers of food all over the floor or counters; evidence of our attempts to bring our sugars up by any means necessary as the feeling of a hypo is worse than any injury I've ever had. When I'm hypo and continuing to drop, my brain tells me that I'm dying and my body is weak, shaking, clamy and not responding to what I want it to do. I go into panic mode.
Luckily right now I am aware that the drop is happening and have been able to catch it before it becomes dangerous. Thanks #dexcom!
If you made it this far, sorry. Hypo Leanne doesn't make much sense and she gets emotional.
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