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knowing and experiencing a bad time and place in your life sucks and little things can remind you and it feels so stupid. i'm not saying i'm sad now, i am trying to say that i'm tired.
tired of not being able to sleep.
tired of being blamed but also blaming myself.
the things i blame myself go from tiny things that don't matter to big things.
i blame myself for giving away a number which led to 3 people being hurt.
i blame myself for fights i've been in recently.
i blame myself for not being able to talk at certain moments.
it all sounds so negative and i promise that is not how i feel.
yes, i struggle with finding positivity in my daily life and surroundings because everything reminds me of something negative.
like school. school makes me feel like i am stupid so
i put up this 'fuck it' act (which people have commented on behind my back but i name no names) but that is not who i am right now. the reason behind this is because i will change schools and i keep on saying i'm at peace with it while i find it extremely difficult to talk about how i really feel about it (hence why i'm making a stupid caption)
people are leaving me and i don't understand why.
long story short; i'm confused as hell and am unable to fall asleep
thanks for reading💓
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