#realtalk #arttalk #thoughts #sketchbooks
(as a subject)
So I am xonscious that usually most people don't give a shit about what I write under my drawing pieces and paint and all but here I need to make a statement officialy in front of the whole world to see 👻
Sketchbooks, as an """"artist""" , I'm a HOBBYIST ONLY so I use the term artist loosely even though I'm way to much passionate about my art than I should be compared to school or whatnot. Whatever, sketchbook are a very precious and emotional object for me and I think for a lot of artists too, correct me if I'm wrong. There may be a lot of unfinished works, splashes on every papers and even some missing or glued together. The cover may be costumed with wathever you like like sayings,songs, stickers, qnything really. It might look perfectly well for some perfectionists outthere, but even if its crappy as fuck and torned appart , it is full of the life of the artist themselves.
What I mean is that its more than effort into a passion passed onto this sketchbook. After all, art does revolve around the environment of the artist, the way they feel make their tracing slow, fast. Maybe they even use art as a therapy against whatever they are struggling with at the moment. I'm sure I do not write very well now,but it's because sketchbooks have such powers in my eyes.
Right now I'm beginning a new sketchbook that cant even hold watercolor but do I care? I love how the paper get used up, crinkle in the book. How by taking the book you can look sideways the pile of paper and tell wich were drawn and wich are still new and fresh. I love hearing the sound of flipping paper when I go through a month of drawing,cetairnly shitty, but still I love the fact that all my senses make me feel that I did something in that books, seeing boring sketches, other wonderfull, failure, smelling the ink, the paint and the paper. It makes me feel like I have a purpose in life, like I am good at something even though it will never be my job as it is so unstable to be just an artist in these days and age.
Sometimes I just feel content because I look at the cover of my old looking sketchbook. It's like meeting a old very close friend.