291/365. I’ve been really good at making excuses for not posting. I’ve been so caught up in traveling and exploring that I just haven’t posted. Type used to be something I did multiple times a day, even for hours. I keep trying to pin point when I stopped focusing so much, and I can’t find an exact moment. However I feel like I spent this past year being creatively beat down, and exhausted and it just reached a point where I needed a break. I’ve never felt that way in my entire life, I’ve always just been able to create non stop. The other thing that keeps getting me down is being my own worst enemy. I pick apart every single thing I do and compare myself negatively to everyone around me, who’s way ahead of me in skill. I know the only way to get better IS to practice, but I just can’t help but beat myself up.
Mentally that’s where I’ve been at lately. —-
Physically, I’ve been in south East Asia now for over a month. I’m feeling finally like I’m getting my mojo back. Recently, we took motorbikes and did a 4 day trip through the northern part of Vietnam. I have truly never experienced such beauty in my life. The people, the culture, the textiles, the landscape, the food. Every single thing was perfect. Finally, I picked my markers back up. See that little dot in the photo, that’s me, on a motorbike! The thing is, the whole concept of the 4 day bike trip was something that terrified me. Something I wasn’t good at. A whole other level of discomfort. But, I just went for it. I gave it a go. So I figure, if I can do that, I can do this, I can do anything.
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