Part 1: I remember sitting down in my college room in 2014 minding my own business just chilling and watching tv.
It felt like everything stopped for a moment when God asked me:
Are you going to preach the gospel the way I tell you to or are you going to preach it the way you were brought up to preach it so you can please people ?
I was completely silent. I told God: I couldn't 😔💔 It's not that I didn't want to preach the Gospel His way. I just couldn't.
I was afraid of what people would start saying about me.
I remember going to preach in places in The Netherlands and when they wanted to film me because they were encouraged by the word I wouldn't let them because I had braids in my hair.
I feared the judgement of people, I was in bondage to them. I feared disappointing my parents.
So when God asked me, I was honest. I don't pretend like I have it all together with anyone. Especially not with the ONE that knows me inside out.
Then is when it happened, I went on a journey with God that changed the trajectory of my life. It was not easy. Little did I know, for the next couple of months he would heal me from the fear of Man. He placed a fire in my belly that I COULDN'T RUN FROM. I would be in prayer circles just praying and demons would manifest. I would hold people's hands in prayer meetings and they would let my hand go because they said "your hand is to hot, it feels as if fire is coming out of your hands.
Meanwhile I thought I was the only one feeling the fire.
I would go into public transportation and demons would manifest.
People I never met with issues I never heard of who DIDN'T believe in God would FIND my number, COME to MY HOUSE and tell me they believe GOD sent them to Me!
Then is when God said do you believe now, can you preach like I tell you now?
The truth is I still couldn't do it.
So I said Daddy, No. I want to but I can't.
He said Murielle you are going to have to choose between Me and your fear.
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