Day 346/365. “Who she think she is?” The most ignorant five words asked of a young black girl as she’s finding her way in this world. Actually, it’s not even asked of her. They are spoken over her, but cowardly in the background because typically they wouldn’t say it to your face.
When I hear the word “bully” used, it’s almost comical because these poor children would have all been home schooled and never let outside to play if they had to deal with Anyhood, USA when I was growing up. Smh
Children are mean and they click up very quickly so, you have to learn how to fight your own battles in this world because those mean girls become hatin women and most never grow out of that way of thinking or being so, you better learn how to handle being mocked and talked about if you want to accomplish anything worthwhile.
Learning to silence the voices came at my expense and experience. I didn’t have a lot of friends growing up because I wasn’t like everybody else. I couldn’t just “go along” and when you’re young that’s a very lonely road, but I had no idea that learning to play by myself would be a great gift as I became woman.
Elevation required separation. I didn’t know that’s what it was at the time, but being alone made me understand myself. I learned to move without approval or permission. I figured out how to trust my own judgement and I thank God that having hurt “feelings” wasn’t the end of the world.
The wrap up... I almost never responded to the question I heard whispered in the background because I didn’t feel it required a response from me. I didn’t quite know who I was yet, but I certainly knew who I wasn’t. And explaining myself to people that wouldn’t understand either way just seemed like a waste of my time. Life is funny like that. The things that should break you will actually make you a Queen in this world when you learn to change the narrative. It’s your life. Work this thing and make it all work for you! #currentlyqueening👑