This job is hard, harder than any job you could ever imagine. It's scary, it tests your every ounce of patients and strength, it has it's really high ups and its really deep downs, it makes your cry, laugh, scream, smile, question everything, doubt everything, cherish beautiful moments, dread hard moments, keeps you guessing, keeps you on your toes, it's messy, it's crazy and it brings out dimensions in you that you would never know existed.
If you don't want to worry about another beings life constantly, if you don't want to be challenged each and every day, if you don't want to wonder every moment if you've done the right thing, if you don't want to sleep in past 7am for the next 18 years, if you don't want to sacrifice parts of yourself and your life then maybe you don't want children.
But if you want to wake up everyday excited to see the little life you created, if you want to question how you ever lived without them before, if you want to cry each time you look at their little sleeping faces coz you feel so fucking lucky to have them, if you want to laugh uncontrollably at every weird little sound they make or when they start mimicking you, if you want to feel your heart nearly explode when they wrap their arms around you and whisper gently that they "love shoo mummmy" then maybe this mum gig is just your type of gig.
The challenges will come and go, the frustration your might be feeling right now as your toddler throws an epic screaming tantrum in the middle of IKEA (yeah this was us a few hours ago so if anyone was worried that there was a child being murdered in the Innaloo area - nope, just Chloe in fine form 😳) it will be a distant memory later when you're cuddling and laughing with your child.
I never knew that being a parent would change my life like it has, I never knew the road would be this bumpy, I didn't know I would be tested and pushed so far to the edge that I felt like stepping off it. But I also didn't know how much all the hard times would be outweighed by how much I love my daughter.
Yes - this screaming, defiant, stubborn, emotional, sensitive, hilariously clumsy, cheeky, clever, sassy, adorable girl - I love her so fucking much 💜