6 years difference in these pictures and I wonder what you see..... Looking back I am ashamed of that 2011 girl...she was a lot like me now but had many things going on that no one could see, she was lonely & lost. Most of the time the ugly showed up when she got drunk and this night was no exception. The picture in 2011 was our yearly May long weekend slow pitch tournament that was with the best group of friends a girl could ask for (miss them as I rarely, if ever, see them now). We had so much fun together, we laughed hard and on this particular weekend always partied & played hard. You see I have a strong network of friends #blessed
and when I would be really drunk by the end of the night that is when my sorrow and pain would come out that was going on with myself. I was always iron clad until too much booze was in my body. My friends/sister would have to try to get me calm without me getting epically pissed off and convince me to go to bed for me not to remember that part of evening the next day. Once I was in that state my off switch was nonexistent for alcohol consumption sadly. :( My friends would share stories with me that I would just honestly bury my head in the sand and let it all get washed away, thankfully my friends always loved me enough to accept that I guess I wasn't perfect or happy. You see I was really in an unhappy place for a long time and I had no idea how to talk about it or change it until a life changing decision started to transform who I was as a human in October 2012.
Fast Forward............. 2017 was a year of a lot of new things and I can tell you I am HAPPY. Not FAKE happy I actually feel happy the majority of the time. I continue to work on myself with the help of an incredibly supportive company that promotes wellness mentally & physically as the way of life and I can tell you it is the KEY FACTOR to me changing my life and picking that sad sorry girl up and realizing I don't have to feel like that. I have a choice and I choose to feel good.
Only ME, MYSELF & I could take charge and make sure I never felt like that girl again. I strive every damn day to be better, to do better, to give back as