Last Monday, I had to say goodbye to one of my pet rats, Jelly. He had to be euthanized after rushing him to the vet when I found him lying at the bottom of his cage, barely breathing. It's interesting, because in my life I have had the privilege and honour of being with all those I have loved, including my parents and pretty much every single one of our many pets, when they passed. So, here I was, once again, this time with little Jelly. I held him in my hands, close to my body, petting him and kissing him softly, letting him know that I loved him, and that he would be free of pain very, very soon. I also told him that a pretty large group of humans -along with dogs, cats, guinea pigs, birds, and a lizard- would be waiting for him on the other side, and that they would continue to love him (save Dusty, our departed shih-tzu, who I basically warned Jelly to stay away from, lol!). Naturally, I cried (it hurts me deeply to see anyone suffer, no matter how big or how small), and I felt incredibly sad leaving him behind (only because my husband and I had to get to a previously scheduled event downtown). But the very next day, I returned to the vet to pick up his body. I will find a special spot in our yard to bury him, using the rocks in the photo as his little headstone.
Well, eleven days have now passed, and I am almost constantly reminded that little Jelly is no longer here, as I spend time with, and care for Bean, my other rat, on a daily basis (although Bean is my anxious, and sometimes aggressive rat, who I have to care for on his "terms", lol, which means no holding and minimal petting. But, trying to look on the bright side, I am hoping that I can now help Bean with some of his issues by having more one-on-one time with him). Nonetheless, Jelly's absence is still strongly felt. Then yesterday, I opened an envelope I received in the mail from the vet. Inside was a card, sweetly expressing condolences for Jelly's loss. And then I noticed it; Jelly's little paw print on the left-hand side of the card. I felt the jab go straight through my heart. 💔
My sweet, little, Jelly. You were a good little rat. And I will miss you. ❤️🐁😢🌈😇