It's the middle of December, it's been one hell of a year, and I'm glad it's over soon.
This fandom has surprised me quite a few times, I've lost some great friends and I've won some great friends as well ( @lasttrueheda
, duh!), and I couldn't be more thankful for those morons. 🙃
However, I've received a few messages from people who were wondering/complaining because I don't message them/initiate conversations anymore.
Honestly? I'm just tired. Tired of being the only one who's fighting for friendships, tired of running after people who don't really reply with more than one sentence or who don't even ask how I am. Not even once a month.
I'm tired of pretending it doesn't bother me. Well – it does, and I don't want to spend the last bit of my energy on running after good times that stopped a long time ago.
I've addressed this before but I'll say it again; I don't do the conversation thing anymore because the way I am has made people back off, and that's okay, really! Don't get me wrong, just live your life and be happy and I'll be happy, too. But please, just tell me to stop caring if you stopped as well. It's not like I have an eternity left for waiting for you to start working on our friendship.
Jeez, I'm frustrated. And I'm tired. And I'm in a bad mood so I'll just watch some happy Alycia videos for the rest of the day. Or of my life, that's okay, too.
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