I think I've come to a realisation where I may fear change. But I know change can be good, I guess I'm just not use to it. And because of that, it has allowed me to stay with things and people who I have an attachment with. I'll only realise to let that go once I notice the negativity if it occurs. This has somewhat delayed the things I want to do in life, the people I want to meet in life. There are things I want to achieve and hope to.. but I always say "in the future" but why not now? I mean these achievements cannot be totally made immediately so I give myself some time. I am inspired by others, their motivation strikes me and their courage to do the best for their own. But for me, I am trying to achieve slowly... and maybe that's not so good because I don't know how long il be able to go until I stop succeeding and living life. But then I say... these things will happen in good time, even after a abundance of patience. Which I consider myself to be, patient. So if I have to, I'll wait and wait... until I reach those goals even in old age. And because I believe I have a long way to go, then I'll be patient until I find my home, the life where I can live where I've reached my dreams and goals.
// We try again and then we fail again but it's okay because that's what progress looks like - like a bunch of failures. And then you're naturally gonna have feelings about that because it's sad. But you don't just fall apart because progress is active.