My look has changed so much this year. Everyone could see i was heading down a dark tunnel but I didn't seek help. It's taken me a very long time to trust people again & to open up about everything that has gone on the last year. It's never easy to talk about but I think the hardest thing to speak about is what happened in March with my in-laws. Everyone around me could see I wasn't coping & they seen in my selfies that I was changing & faking my happiness but I can honestly say I now smile & laugh with my heart & not just to be brave 🙂 it's taken me a very long time to feel this way but I'm finally at a place where I'm happy. Sure I have bad days but I'm a bloody fighter so I'll always be okay 🙂 what helped me get through the shit my brother in law did- is my family & close friends. What the In law, his daughter, wife, step daughter & his sister did is unforgivable. I'm usually a very forgiving person but not this time. They are nothing to me because I don't want to surround myself with people who are full of drama & bullshit. I live a simple life these days & it shows 🙂 I still get his bullshit thrown at me but I'm strong enough to ignore it & laugh.