.... It's now been 4 weeks since my first ever bikini competition and these last 4 weeks have probably been more challenging than my whole prep!!! Struggling to cope with my body no longer looking like it did on show day and thinking you look like the size of a whale is a daily occurrence!! Yes Iv put on a few kg but that was always going to happen, however excepting this is harder than it seems! Alongside this my body has completely rejected most things I have eaten for the past 4 weeks, having many nights in absolute agony with stomach cramps and looking 9 months pregnant!! And even with this I have struggled to control my eating, sticking to my macros for 3 days in the past month, eating everything in sight, even food I don't even want, even though I know my body will not agree with it!! However, I know this is just temporary and my body is just re-adjusting to eating normal food again, and I need to learn to love how ever I look and stop wishing I was stage ready again, as living on super low calories and doing hours of cardio is not maintainable!! Life is for living and there is more to life than having Abs!!