This 3 EMPTY Biscoff jars are here in my room😥 Why? Because I eat them when I am alone. Because I don't want that my parents know that I am spooning them.... and I am just ashamed for myself😩. I feel like shit again. The reason is that I opened the third biscoff YESTERDAY. And today? It's empty again.
I was so full after yesterday's #nightsnack
and I felt very guilty. It was ca half a biscoff jar plus some chocolate and some #homemade
So today I ate for #breakfast
half a sandwich with ham and for #lunch
a plate of Olivecremesoup. I skipped #dinner
and just wanted to eat a few chocolate pieces for my nightsnack today😩😝 BUT WHAT?? It ended up in eating the rest of the biscoff jar (I think it was more than yesterday 😫), homemade cookies, chocolate and one biscoff cookie.
Now I am laying in my bed and feel so full again... I am thinking about restricting tomorrow and I know it will end up bad again. I really don't know what to do. I am in this fcking vicious circle. And that since days😥
Self hate is so big, because I am such a failure and fake anorexic. I am able to restrict but than I eat the damn sweets... WHY... WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?
And I just want to ask if you want that I put the "TW" in post like these 😅
And do you think it's bad that I am so negative in this posts? Because it's only the fourth one...😅 I just want to be honest... I wish you a very Good Night fleas💕
#anorexia #anorexianervosa #recovery #anaisabitch #ed #depression #worthit #body #bebodypositive #fighting #chocolate #biscoff #cookies #loveyourself #acceptyourself