Okay so here's my first post in a LONG WHILE.
Why haven't I posted in so long? Because I've been out of the game for that long! 😩
Yeah nearly a month with almost no activity & terrible eating habits! And I have my friend's wedding next weekend and my trip to Southeast Asia in three weeks! AHH!!! 🤦♀️
Let me tell you how terrible I started to feel: I started gaining back a lot of the weight I had lost and became increasingly lethargic. My self esteem started going down. I kept telling myself I needed to get back on track but kept failing to do so, being busy and also becoming too comfortable with a lack of movement. It can be so easy to get stuck when you lose that momentum.
But let me also tell you how much I have to be proud of, in retrospect. In the past month, I have been taking care of family, working my ass off in school and at work, mourning the tragic and sudden loss of an old friend, and applying to new jobs. The school year is successfully coming to a close, my semester has come to a close and I'm officially DONE, and I've just been offered a wonderful position as a lead teacher at a new school! I look forward to moving into a new apartment, in a new neighborhood, with my husband...a home that we can truly call our own. So let me stop myself before I get too hard on myself for "letting myself go." Cause nah. I didn't let myself go. But now that I have a lot of stuff behind me (and lot of awesome things that lie ahead), I am very excited to get back in action!
Today I went on my first outdoor run in a month, and at first I kinda felt like crap cause I wasn't feeling as strong as I used to and I was getting winded. But then I checked my #runkeeper
app and I realized I had actually been running at my fastest pace! It was just the uplift that I needed. So even though I only ran ~3.5km (I also ran a bit with my app shut off so this is an estimate), it was still a victory. It's a victory because I finally got out and did it, and because it was at a really decent speed for me. After my run I stopped by the gym to use some machines, and then I went home and devoured some avocado and egg with onion and Tabasco cause I was a hungry beast.