"As iron sharpens iron, so one man sharpens another"- Proverbs 27:17
I grew. I did. I felt potent when we last met. I grew. And I became more attentive and independent. Believe it, this is God's gift through you to me.
The scene when we first met still revives in my mind. I just couldn't overlook it. It reminded me of my ego, my arrogance and absurdity. These made me fragile, addressed towards my insecurities. I detested you when i first saw you. When you became our leader for fellowship, I wasn't bothered. I disparaged you and wouldn't listen to any words coming from you. Whenever I looked back, it was just plain contempt.
This changed when we hiked. I criticized from the start. My mind flashed, something has battered me. I perceived the bond between us when we finished the race. I carried out more than the 15km, way more. Until now, I still couldn't clarify the bond, it was just perplexed. From that point on, I was no longer behind the play, I was in the show. Let's get embarrassed, shall we? I heard there was a term named trust, is this trust?
Now, this changed, once again. You, no longer here. Some stayed and some left. Am I lost?
Every time, when we gather, I acknowledge that we are doing better than never. I lied. I hope you can see that. Maybe it's time to push ourselves into the wilderness, in search for the lost others. You have equipped us well. I grew. We sharpened as one. Believe it, this is God's gift through you to us.
I lingered. And I looked back. I am still the old me. I am still the one behind.
It's always hard to step out from your comfort zone. It takes more than time. -Jkwok-
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