When I first determined to go to Italy 6 months ago, I was like "I want to lose 20 pounds before I go because _____ blah blah blah...." 🤔 I can't remember why.. but instead I guess I just kept living life, focusing on taking care of my emotional, mental, and physical needs, unconcerned with depriving or killing myself at the gym when quite frankly it would have toasted my adrenals & zapped my nervous system given the stressful conditions at the time. The person who got off the plane in Rome was not the perfectly toned Mediterranean model I had initially (weirdly) hoped for, but rather a confident, open-hearted, enthusiastic, self-loving version of ME -- just authentic, perfectly normal, unabashed ME. I have never felt so comfortable in a swimsuit as I did when I took this photo, which is astonishing for me to realize because I've been in much trimmer shape in my younger, more self-conscious years. It has been such a long time coming that I felt compelled to capture it in a photo in an effort to somehow send a message through time to that girl from my past, assuring her that the obsessive calorie counting & sporadic eating disorders can be done away with, whispering to her that one day the discomfort and unsurety would melt away simply from being dedicated to loving, loving, loving. It is not easy work to look at & sit with our shadow, but darkness is only dispelled once light is shed upon it; and then as if by magic, what once seemed so bad & shameful turns out to be our power animal, our medicine, our gift for humanity.... Sit with it, babies, and you'll come out shiny & new. .
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