"disease to please" ...legit my life story in every part of my life. It has burnt me out and left completed depleted of self-esteem, love and all the good stuff in between. Folks took as much as they could before I had a chance to make myself full. I can't blame anyone because I had allowed it for the past 30 years of my life. The interesting part is, noone knew because , I didn't want to let anyone down and simply, because of the ego. So, over the past year doing the work of getting back my self-esteem,pride, confidence and learning to actually stand up for myself; at a higher consciousness, while at the same time, learning to forgive myself and others for the mistakes that were made. Its hard because when you try to grow into better and higher version of yourself, it has come at a surprises to me that the same people you have given your last drop of blood too are the same people who don't understand working at higher level. I just always assumed for some reason, that when you make the change, others would see it and appreciate it for what it is and work at that level. But alas, I left feeling disappointed but yet I'm at peace because I know now that people come in your life reason and season and as I grow and become aware, it's okay that you grow out of people and that people don't see things the same as I because everyone has their own reasons for doing what they do whether I agree with it or not. Living by the notion of love is surprisingly a lonely feat as most aren't ready for it yet but again that it's okay. My learnings to break from this "disease" is teaching a lot about myself and others, which are things that I would probably never learned if I didn't start this process of change. Note for the day: always make sure you love yourself FULLY first before you can start giving to others. 🖤💜💛💚💙
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